queer as folk

The most famous gay serie ever, It had 5 seasons and was produced by showtime.

Everything started with the Britsh movie that became a not very famous serie. Then came the American version, much more famous and spicier than the Britsh, it had very controversial themes, such as drugs, adoption by gay parents, the complex relationship between gays and straights among others.

It Is more focoused in mainly in tha male gay theme, but It also shows some female gay mostly a couple that is married and have a kid.

The serie shows the life os five friends:Brian, Justin, Michael, Emmet and Ted; a lesbian couple, Lindsay and Melanie and Michael's crazy( in a good way) pro gay Debbie, and then Another character came in the second season Ben.

The title of the seria comes from the Britsh expression "there's nowt as queer as folk", that means "there's nothing as strange as people (Folk)".

Brian Kinney: a veritable sex machine. At 30 years old, he is living life for the now. He is his own man and believes in having sex for the sheer joy of doing it. While he and Justin have an on-and-off-again relationship, Justin is the only one of his sexual encounters that Brian finds himself falling in love with and the only one he continues to have sex with after the first night. He makes his living as an advertising executive for Vangard, and later on builds his own company Kinnetik. While he purports himself as not part of the gay and lesbian community, he will do what he can to protect his fellow gay man or woman. His motto when it comes to straight people: "There are two kinds of straight people in the world, those that hate you to your face and those who hate you behind your back."

Justin Taylor:Justin loses his virginity to Brian at the age of seventeen and falls in love with him. He runs away from home after coming out of the closet, primarily because his stin loses his virginity to Brian at the age of seventeen and falls infather is not accepting of his lifestyle. Nicknamed "Sunshine" by Debbie because of his bright smile and cheery disposition, Justin is queer-bashed at the end of Season 1, resulting in Brian taking him in during Season 2.

Michael Novotny: Brian's best friend since adolescence, Michael secretly harbours feelings for him. He enjoys reading comic books, particularly Captain Astro adventures. He starts the series as a manager at a K-Mart-like department store, the Big Q, but eventually follows his dream of opening a comic book store. From Season 2, he and Justin create the comic book Rage. From Season 2 onwards, Michael finds himself in a long-term relationship with Ben Bruckner, whom he eventually marries.

Emmett Honeycutt:Originally from Hazlehurst, Mississippi, Emmett is the most flamboyant of the group. He goes through several jobs, including shopkeeper at a clothing store called Torso, porn star, naked maid, party planner, and correspondent for a local news station. When he is a party planner he got to meet a football player, and they fall in live with eachother.

Ted Schmidt: An accountant with a low self-esteem who envies Brian's lavish lifestyle, Ted is constantly rejected by men at gay clubs around Pittsburgh. He has a relationship in Season 3 with Emmett, as well as an on-again-off-again relationship with Blake.

They say life is harder for those who are obviously gay, well can't say It's harder because I'm not, but I can tell that when you are not out and obvious you have to keep living a lie, built up relationships based in lies and, one day, they'll eventually figure you out, It's like a hunt, where the inside of the closet are the hunted and the straight are the hunters. When you are obvious, even when you are inside of the closet, people already expect you to be gay, so, you do feel the prejudice against you, but people know you, so when you eventually come out, you don't have a Mexican soup opera episode the day you come out.

I feel like that more and more nowadays, I love my friends but now they are too curious about my recent relationships, which I haven't had any for a long time. I feel like they have this constant question in their heads, but thanks God they don't make questions.

starcrossed

Two brother that fall in love with each other in a very dramatic Romeo and Juliet style, in the movie is shown the unconditional love between them and how they are not accepted by their parents. With a very good film shooting and inebriating scenes, when you get to the end you wish the movie weren't a short movie, you wish it lasted more.

Here's a picture when they weren't lovers

Here's a picture when remounting a classic scene where they are laid on a hood of a car.

Director:James Burkhammer
Writer:James Burkhammer (writer)

Casting

J.B. Ghuman Jr. Darren

Marshall Allman Connor

John Wesley Shipp Lane the Father

Simon Ragaine Young Darren

Derek Sean Lara Young Connor

Darcy DeMoss Mother

Gina Rodgers Amanda

Torrey DeVitto Maura

Victor Bevine Football Coach

Colette Divine Hotel Clerk

starcrossed

I downloaded the short starcrossed! finally!
I spend hours looking for it on the internet and on 3 different p2k programs and I got it!
Man That was the best short gay love story I have ever seen, and the saddest too
I won't tell the end, butand put the trailer here

I'll write a review later about it.
I also watched, thunder storm a German movie.
I'm a movie maniac so I'll write alot about movies here.

from the begining to the end( do começo ao fim)

I watched this trailer yesteday, and I loved, It seemed to be a very good movie, It's a Brazilian or Portuguese movie, I'm not really sure about that.

Every time I watch a movie like that I think about my own situation in life.I aim to have a love like that, but I think It's not only me, I think everybody seeks for love.
I'm looking forward to watch it, but I couldn't find It anywhere I think It hasn't been released yet.It is a very controversial movie, they are brothers and they fall in love with each other, well I can tell only based on what I watched, I felt like this movie is about love, no matter how It's presented.

I don't really understand anything at all what they say, but it is about the movie, with the actors from the movie.

Here they are having some good time, well they seem to be a nice couple.
the official website:

http://www.pequenacentral.com.br/cinema/docomecoaofim/

Breaking through.

I've been talking to my analyst and she said I should write more about how I feel, as an exercise in order to keep my mind clean and everything well.
So here we are, I'm going to start with a confession:
I'm 22, crazy about candy, computers and technology, love reading swimming and running and I'm gay, not out of the closet obviously, I'm really discrete, at least I try to.
Well first I'll start telling some facts from my past which I'll help to understand my personality.

Fact #1: My parents are divorced, since, well, since I can remember, they lived a short period of time under the same roof, but my father was(is) addicted to alcoholic drinks, and he pulled my mom down as long as she could stand, then she expelled him from the house(summarizing the story). I felt without a family

Fact #2 :When I was about 6 My mom had two jobs to support us, than she hired a nanny to look after me, but the nanny didn't do the job she was hired for, and that's when all the drama starts. One of my older cousins, back at that time a 16 years old teen, rapped me several times.
Well, at that time, I was only 6, I couldn't understand anything wrong with that, He used to take home nice toys for us to play, and then he fucked me uncountable times. I felt a bitch

Fact #3: when I started to feel that something was wrong, well I remember very well the day everything came to me, I was having a conversation with my mom, we always did that, stay in bed talking about everything, on one of these days I told her what he had done to me she got really bad. Nobody had done anything either to punish him nor to protect me. I felt unprotected

Since then I feel really unsecure about my life, like I'm constant fear, like something bad would come along and hunt me down.

Fact #4 Because of the facts above I haven't been able to keep a relationship with anyone else, every time someone approaches I push the person away, I always feel like people want to use me or like I'm been used by somebody. I tried few times to have a relationship, specially because of the fear.

What brigs to the person I’m today, I haven’t had a relationship so far either with a girlfriend nor with a boyfriend I’m going to use this blog as my journal, just to take if off my chest and try to understand myself better.

listening to: Everything by lifehouse